Pictures....

So here are pictures of part of my campus and then of a park near me. See I can keep promises...
This below picture is part of the Computer Science and Accounting and Marketing building. This next picture is of the univerity flag along the "mall" its a long, straight path that connects the two parts of campus.

This next one is of the "mall" towards most of the dorms and cafeteria.

This is a small map of the university, it is very spread out.

The signs that help direct visitors and freshman to what buildings they want to get to.

Sitting area on campus.

The tennis court at the park near where I live.

The path that I walk in the evenings when I can.

Teeter totters, There is also a swing set and baseball area.

Interesting picture of the carport.

So I finally added some pictures. Sam has been away for awhile working so I don't have any pictures, when he gets home this weekend I will 'kidnap' him to take some pictures of him to post here.

Another Update sans pictures...

I know I keep promising pictures…but it’s just not happening currently. I AM going to be taking some pictures of my neighborhood and campus, tomorrow, truly…I AM.

Sam is doing well. He is working two weeks on and one weekend off currently. He is at a different site right now so he is staying in a hotel and living on ramen noodles and Peanut butter and Jelly sandwiches. He seems to like what he is doing so I am happy for him. He is already starting to tan again from working outside…I wish I could tan like he does, he does brown almost. I stay pasty white or look sick when I have a tan.

Me, hmm, there is 2 weeks left in school and I can’t wait. I do have a 5 page paper to write and a presentation to do next week but then there is dead week and finals. The running joke around where I work is that I should go get drunk on my birthday because I will be 21 but there are three things wrong with that scenario, 1) I don’t normally drink (I did a little while in Germany, where I sipped others beers and had ONE shot of something, but from that I found out I HATE beer and I am not much of a drinker), and 2) I have finals starting Monday no way I am going to be partying when I will be studying 3) My birthday falls on Mother’s Day this year so Yeah, going to be a crazy busy day anyway.

We are coming up to Canada, and I cannot wait. Sam will be there for a week and me, 2 weeks. Then I come back and work in my church’s nursery the rest of the summer.

I am so excited about June and July….it’s the FIFA 2010 Soccer Cup in South America. I am going to be watching as many matches as I can around my work schedule.

P.S. I have taken pictures I now just have to get them from my camera to here...

School and other

So no pictures this time either.

School has been insane! Why did I think it was going to be easier after spring break?

Oh and about spring break, it was okay. I worked most of the time. I did hand out with Kim and J, B, and N. that was a great afternoon and evening. I enjoyed helping J. with his reading and B. with his spelling. I did get sick on Wednesday of that week which was not fun. I thought I was getting the Flu again but it turned out to be just a cold (praise God, if it had been the flu I would have wished to perish because I did not want it a second time).

This past weekend, I got to see my G.P. and D. It was a great weekend. Playing domino’s and resting and reading. The drive to Kerrville was good. I did find that my little car and the West Texas wind do not go to well together, but I made it there and back in one piece.

School is insane (I say again). Two papers (5 + pages each) due in the next two weeks. I have a test in Texas History next week plus another paper…just too much to think about right now. I cannot wait till summer. I will be working more but I at least will not be going to school. I can enjoy the summer!

I am planning on going to Canada from May 24-June 5 and Sam from May 24 –May 29 (if he will get his act together and ask for the time off work).

That’s all for now.

Spring Break

I cannot wait till next week. School this week has been incredibly stressful. I did make decent grades on the paper and tests that I know of this week.

I made a 92 on my Texas History paper. Which a great accomplishment, lots of apparently of people have told me that Dr. D, is really hard and boring but I have not found that. He is very entertaining and yeah some of his jokes are corny but at least he has a sense of humor. I enjoy his class which is a good thing because I have to take another course he teaches in the fall semester.

In geography I made a 92 on the second test of the semester (88 on the first one). I don’t feel that I really earned it though. I haven’t really put much effort into studying for his class as I should, but it comes easy for me. I can memorize places on a map or geological features with ease. The cultural part of it is becoming interesting at least.

I do have a French IV test tomorrow that I don’t feel at ease about. Even if I study I can’t seem to do well in her class, it is very frustrating.

Spring break is next week though. I cannot wait. I will be working at the WTC and the church nursery plus I will be house sitting but it will still be a change. I won’t have to worry about going to class or over sleeping because my bosses at the WTC don’t expect any of us student workers in before 9 or 10 am. Which is a great change after having 8am classes all week.

I am going to start a paper for English class and possible start on my other history book but mostly just trying to relax and breathe. And work through all the emotions I have been keeping inside because there is too much else going on in my life to deal with them too.

Feelings

I'm really tired of people asking me if I’m okay, need to talk etc, etc.
I'm also tired of the remarks that “your acting weird” or “why aren't you crying”.
After crying more than I have in the last six months in a 4 day period I can't seem to cry anymore. I FEEL like crying but I don't seem to have anymore tears to cry with. I Love my Grandma, just because I am not falling apart now that is gone doesn't mean I don't care. I’m trying to compartmentalize my feelings right now till spring break (another week...) because I have way to much school work going on this week and next. I am so stressed out right now with everything that has been going on, part of it is because I have been slacking on my daily quiet time with God. I’m trying to handle everything on my own and I am soo not good at it. This week has been horrible because I can’t bring myself to care about anything school related even though I have so much of it due. I have been forcing myself to go through the motions and write a 5 page History paper, study for 3 exams next week (possibly for depending on how the teacher feels) and 2-4 page English paper.

To try and relax (is that even possible while in university?) I have been organizing all my Germany pictures I took last July and picking my favorite to make a book on shutterfly.com. It takes my mind off stuff I should be doing….I know, I know studying should come first. Not really concerned with that right now. My dad is though, I know he is trying to think of my future but right now a failed assignment will not affect my grade too bad in 2 out of 5 classes. One class has a lot of extra credit 1 page papers I could do I could pass the coarse alone if I did all of them.

I am just so worn out this week it makes me wonder if I really want to do Graduate school. I have another year till I finish my bachelors and it would add 2 more years on. Lots to think about after this coming week.

Grief

I've decided grief sucks.

I know grandma was dying, I've been getting phone calls all week on how she was. I thought I was prepared. I guess not.

I think about grandma or something we loved to do together and I feel tears on my cheeks. I've never been a crier so its uncomfortable and weird to me.

I love grandma. I have such great memories with her.

Walking to Safeway to get groceries, was fun, she would talk about the buildings or just how things had changed.

Playing Cribbage together, that will forever be etched in my memory as "our" game. She was always patient with me. She taught me how to play and as I got older she made the game more "grown up" by stealing points if I didn't add the math right. I remember 2 am in Mexico, neither of us could sleep so she says "you awake Kerry?" me "Yeah" her, "want to play some crib?" and we did. We played like 5 games of crib till both of us couldn't count and we were able to sleep. We did this several nights while in Mexico, with the spanish music station on t.v. softly playing in the background.

I remember sleep overs at grandma being a highlight. (especially if it was just me). There was one time I got to bowl with her team because they were a person short. I was so proud. (I didn't do very well but that fact that grandma would let me play was a big deal).

I love cooking with her, and hearing stories about growing up on the farm and then her travels through the years. I loved going through her picture albums and asking her questions about her friends and even about what her first thoughts were when I was born.

I am going to miss my grandma!
I wish I had some pictures of grandma to put here, but all my pictures of her didn't make it down to Texas.

Update 2/16/2010

So update.

School: STRESSED (have three tests this week, one next week, and a 5 page paper due the next week. I am hopeing (but not holding my breath) that it will calm down after spring break but that has never happened before but I can always hope.

Valentines Day: Happy Belated Valentines Day to y'all.
Mine was pretty fun. I got flowers at work on friday (and got asked out), went on my first officail (the guy met my dad and stuff) date. That was cool. Went to see a movie and just hung out and talked afterwards.

Sam: Still hasn't found a job. May be going up to Canada for a few weeks (wouldn't hold your breath over that). Mom says she will buy his ticket as a early birthday present.

Hmm, that seems to be about it for now. No new pictures. I haven't had time to take pictures, I will try and make up for that in the next couple of weeks.